tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-63689029899173876372024-02-08T07:53:02.088-08:00Enlightening TidbitsStories And Insights From The Healers PathSimon Deaconhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09189297137798109901noreply@blogger.comBlogger15125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6368902989917387637.post-1019828487210122202014-02-16T23:44:00.000-08:002014-03-19T02:20:45.127-07:00What "Is"<div style="text-align: justify;">
Restlessness is a very familiar state of mind for me. I've been that way most of my life but recently something changed profoundly.</div>
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It was night time on a saturday and I was home alone. I'm certainly not against having fun and most certainly still long for it but one of the annoying side effects of spiritual growth is that you outgrow certain aspects of pleasure because you're just not in that head space anymore. However, just because you outgrow something doesn't necessarily mean you stop longing for it. That night was such a night and it was just as familiar to me as my restlessness. </div>
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That night my restlessness hit an all time peak. I was SO FED UP with not having a personal life, not having a love life, not having more opportunities for fun. A part of me had known for quite a few years that my life had gone through an incredible awakening and I most certainly had outgrown the wild self-indulgent years of my late 20's, early 30's. Sometimes I was at peace with it, other times like that night I was ready to crawl out of my skin.</div>
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I grunted in frustration, grabbed my coat, and stormed out the door. I was going to go to a club that I've been to many times before. Perhaps I could find some distraction there. I stomped down Christopher Street, crossed 7th Avenue, and was about to descend into the uptown subway station when suddenly something abruptly stopped me at the stairs. It was my intuition. My intuition had grown in strength over the years so I knew it when I felt it. It literally grabbed a hold of my legs and stopped me from going into the subway. The absolute definitiveness of it's message to not get on the subway was so complete I knew I had no choice but to not argue with it. It still pissed me off. </div>
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I grunted in frustration again. My mind started to rationalize. Perhaps going to that club would be too expensive.....I'll walk to a local bar and find some relief there. I started walking up 7th avenue. No more than a block up and I heard my intuition again, "No Simon you will not go to that bar." Again it stopped me in it's tracks. I sighed in frustration and leaned up against a wall. Now what? I just stood there actually waiting for my intuition to give me further instructions. I sighed again and just gave in, "Screw this I'm just going back home."</div>
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As I walked back home that's when I felt a shift. I stopped and looked around the street that I lived on and suddenly noticed how beautiful it looked. The weather was pleasant and the spirit on the street seemedly lively. I always loved this street due to it's array of shops and colorful people but tonight seemed especially pleasing. My heart was acknowleding a lovely gratitude for this moment. I then went back to my co-op. I'm usually used to a winding down period everytime I come back to my apartement after a stressful experience but there was none. As I sat in on my couch I could feel a peace and freedom radiate in my being. It was then I knew what was happening. I was completely in the moment. </div>
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This was the lesson of that night. My mind and ego was always projecting an expectation that took me out of the moment. I always ran down a list of why this moment wasn't enough - I don't have this, I don't have that, I'm not happy enough, I don't have a love life....ANYTHING is better than this moment. But that night my mind/ego finally ran out of things to project.</div>
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At times I saw it as a scarey thing to be completely in the moment. I feared that if I did I was somehow irresponsible to a better planning of my future. I now see more for what it is - Fear creating an illusion that diminished the power of being completely in the moment. For one's power in never expressed more radiantly than this moment. </div>
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As I look back I still see I need some practice with this state of being. But now in my heart a deeper reassurance is sparked that I am exactly where the Divine needs me to be. The full embracing of What Is. </div>
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<br />Simon Deaconhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09189297137798109901noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6368902989917387637.post-3990670657922730162014-02-15T17:15:00.002-08:002014-02-16T23:42:19.251-08:00Twin Flame<br />
Your love is like the river<br />
Turbulent and cleansing<br />
While I am the stone<br />
that the river smoothes of all it's imperfections<br />
No resentment of it's turbulence<br />
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I surrender to the river<br />
I surrender to my Oneness<br />
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I experienced the treasures of your heart<br />
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I said they were hidden deep within a cave<o:p></o:p></div>
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Buried under the soft rich earth<o:p></o:p></div>
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I always sought to find those treasures<o:p></o:p></div>
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Digging deeply to gaze upon it's beauty again and again<o:p></o:p></div>
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Was I selfish to want to bring these treasures to the light
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Did I ask too much of this request?<o:p></o:p></div>
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Such richness inspired me but they were never mine<o:p></o:p></div>
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Of how you held them in so cautiously<o:p></o:p></div>
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Yet you allowed me into these buried chambers<o:p></o:p></div>
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And within these chambers I could feel that I was home<o:p></o:p></div>
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The earth lovingly sang to me your name<o:p></o:p></div>
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And in that moment I knew that you were kin<o:p></o:p></div>
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I put your hand to my heart to feel the witness<o:p></o:p></div>
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Of my heart glowing in the radiance of this recognition<o:p></o:p></div>
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But when Light shines so bright <o:p></o:p></div>
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Comes the fear that Light will be taken away<o:p></o:p></div>
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And I was afraid<o:p></o:p></div>
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My fear forgot the sacredness of your hidden treasures<o:p></o:p></div>
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For that I am truly sorry<o:p></o:p></div>
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And seeing your face in a picture <o:p></o:p></div>
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I could tell your face was glowing<o:p></o:p></div>
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No bitterness could deny the gratitude<o:p></o:p></div>
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That perhaps you shared more of your treasures with the
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Yet I am not there to share it with you.<o:p></o:p></div>
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I now see your buried treasures and how they mirrored mine<o:p></o:p></div>
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My treasures I did not wish to hide away<o:p></o:p></div>
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And from the glowing brilliance your heart inspired<o:p></o:p></div>
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A wall came down<o:p></o:p></div>
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A wall of tears and stoic bad habits<o:p></o:p></div>
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And all of a sudden I stepped forth into mystery<o:p></o:p></div>
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You brought me to that silence<o:p></o:p></div>
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I will always love you for it.<br />
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Simon Deaconhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09189297137798109901noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6368902989917387637.post-75746346671899586772013-11-06T02:37:00.000-08:002014-01-26T23:23:35.227-08:00Meditation and Flow<div style="text-align: justify;">
I did my meditation tonight. I should definitely do more on a weekly basis. Though my meditation is sporadic, when I return to it I see that each meditation is not the same as the last one. It slowly brings more into my awareness.</div>
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Focusing at times is hard and I find myself thinking about something else like a TV episode or a past memory. I've learned to just take a deep breath and re-center myself, allowing the thoughts to flow out. At times the thoughts surge back and I find myself getting discouraged and feel like I'm not doing it right. Meditations in the past have taught me not to resist these feelings for they truly are part of the meditation. I am brought to a place of mental exhaustion and that's where I feel the part of my mind or ego that holds resistence. I go deeper into that resistence, it begins to disapate, and soon I feel a flow of light and freedom envelop my being.</div>
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I recall Adyashanti and other spiritual teachers say to never assume you can control the transending of the mind or ego. True transcendance is when you let go of the mind and the ego's resistence wears itself out on it's own. Those moments in meditation when I feel the light and freedom are those moments when I allow my mind to step back and Being comes forth in surrender and openness. </div>
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When you choose to go into awakening your whole reality goes to those places where the mind and ego can wear itself out. Only when the mind and ego is brought to the ultimate brink of biting, scratching and striving can one find that surrender into Oneness. However, thanks to the healing and meditation I've done that place of surrender and accpetance has become easier. Not all surrender has to be hard when you've learned to hold that freedom within your heart. Each obstacles becomes easier to transcend because you have become more a part of that divine flow. You flow with your obstacles, not against them. </div>
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I was recently in the New Age section of the Barnes & Noble at Union Square. Their New Age section is not the most impressive but then again when is it? ;-) Two men entered the section and started talking about the quality of the books. I overheard one of the men say, "You're defintiely not going to find books here with any good answers." It's very easy to assume that, especially with Barnes & Noble. When we think of B&N we usually think of slick main stream books with less quality for good reading. Yet I was somehow turned off by the snobbery of this man. In the past I played a fun little game with myself. I would find a book and open it up at random. The lines I found myself reading were definitely related to an issue I was going through at the time. This game was inspired by the book, "A Guide For The Advanced Soul" by Susan Hayward. The book literally instructed you to open the book at random and there would be a quote on the page you opened to that would have your answer from the Universe. </div>
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After I heard that man's comment I challenged myself. "These books have no real answers ay?" I thought to myself... I let my intuition grab a book from the shelf and opened it at "random" Low and behold the lines on the paragraph I let my eyes rest on had a great insight on an issue I was going through at that present moment. I regret to say I don't remember the quote. </div>
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However! In the spirit of the book, "A Guide For The Advance Soul" I will now go to my own bookshelf, choose a book, open it up at random and write in my blog what I read. One sec.....</div>
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Yes, many times I have meditated on this state of "Being" The only thing I truly "know" about it from my "experience" is that it transcends mind on a very profound level. Such a state of Being resonates deep within your soul and radiates outward as if you are completely melding with everything in life around you. I experienced this just recently at my group healing at Nurtured Spirits in Warwick, NY. I gave a powerful group healing and afterward I had a wonderful discussion and intuitive counsel with all the people who attended. I felt so confident and in the moment. It was a true and blessed zen moment. :-)</div>
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So it would seem the Universe wishes me to meditate more on this particular issue. The memory of the state of Being I experienced at the group healing resonates in my heart as I write. This I sense is no coincidence. It's a reminder that the wonderful Beingness I felt in Warwick is my most truest and Highest Self and I should strive more to embody that in my everyday life. </div>
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For those of you who may be inspired to play the game of "Random Books" my only advice is to trust yourself. To open a book and find a quote that's exactly for you requires putting your mind and doubts aside and letting your intuition do the walking. It may take some practice. Good luck and blessings to you!</div>
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</div><div style="text-align: justify;">Two months ago I proceeded to do a full protocol Vortex Healing® on the issue of creativity. The outcome of the healing felt quite subtle but slowly began to gain momentum over time. I now realize it's important for me to remember what I appreciate about art in the present before I can move forward. </div><div style="text-align: justify;"><br />
</div><div style="text-align: justify;">One thing the healing has brought up is my anger towards a particular grade school art teacher. I don't remember her name but I will certainly never forget her. She was a strict and angry women. She cared more about enforcing order in her classroom than she did inspiring her students. I recall the first day of class she proceeded to lecture the students with a stern and joyless tone, raising her voice abruptly at times to let the kids know she meant business. I disliked her immediately. One time I tried to leave class without cleaning up my art supplies. She didn't just order me back into the classroom, she proceded to scream and scream and scream at me all throughout the time I cleaned up my table. She purposefully stopped the whole class in it's tracks so all the kids could witness my humiliation. It makes me angry to this day. </div><div style="text-align: justify;"><br />
</div><div style="text-align: justify;">However, I recall another time in class that was different. I was doing my artwork as usual when the teacher came by to look at it. At that moment her pinched angry face lit up into a smile. "That's really nice!" she said in a positive tone that sounded almost alien. I could see she was really impressed with what I had created. </div><div style="text-align: justify;"><br />
</div><div style="text-align: justify;">The healing I've done on myself has helped me to appreciate that moment. I must remember that the best of who you are shines most brightly during times of such adversity.</div><div style="text-align: justify;"><br />
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Simon Deaconhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09189297137798109901noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6368902989917387637.post-72089834559364799842011-08-05T20:03:00.000-07:002014-02-18T23:04:32.696-08:00Reaching Towards Forgiveness<div style="text-align: justify;">
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My path towards forgiving those who have hurt me has been a challenging one. The path of forgiveness is supposed to be hard at times for when one finally attains it the rewards are far greater than one could ever imagine. Yet, before forgiveness comes anger. Anger at times becomes incidious and convinces us we are justified in holding onto our pain and to forgive would almost be a sign of weakness. We can think of many people in our lives we hold that belief towards. Someone who has so grieviously hurt and betrayed us that our perception on them turns downright villianous. A former friendly acquaintance of mine came to me for a healing who was most definitely under the stigma of that perception. I will call him George.</div>
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The issue George and I chose to focus on during his session was self-love. And rightly so! After such a painful breakup George's self-esteem was completely shattered with certainly no sympathy coming to him from any direction. It was during this healing I viewed something so profound that to this day I consider it a true divine blessing to witness.</div>
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As George lay on my table I felt the presence of Christ envelop over him. I once considered myself a Christian so I had no trouble identifying His divine presence. His essence radiated over Paul with a beautiful golden warmth full of gentleness and unconditional love. The essence of Christ began to pluck out of George's system little bits of "sin." Or perhaps removing pieces from George's soul filled with darkness and guilt. </div>
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I have witnessed many spirit guides and dieties that acually assist during healing sessions but this will always stand out as the most memorable. Many people will consider George's actions to be beyond forgiveness but on that day the presence of Christ was there to say this was not so. From where the Divine stands no one is beyond forgiveness. Forgiveness becomes so hard to reach for the walls of hurt and anger stand stubbornly against it. It is then the divine must lend a hand to break down those walls to bring you to the next level. I remember Susan Sarandon's character from the movie, "Dead Man Walking" say a line that I have always remembered. "There are some spaces of sorrow that only God can touch." I understand the hurt and isolation one feels when one is in a state of not forgiving. The Universe has tremendous compassion for this state and will always say to you, "It's ok if you can't do this on your own. Surrender your hurt and anger to Me and I will take it for you." </div>
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I haven't heard from George in a long time. My personal feelings will always hold him accountable for his actions. I cannot deny, however, what I witnessed on that table. The truth is the Divine showed me that George is not beyond forgiveness. So as I look upon people who are perceived with nothing but distain and contempt I can't help but be reminded they too are not beyond forgiveness. Such a concept may be hard for some people to believe and I don't blame them. I too have held terrible rage in my heart for those who have hurt me. Yet in those moments I allow myself the space to feel that anger and ever so slowly surrender that hurt to the Divine. It's ok if the process is slow. The Divine is eternally patient towards our process. As I said, the path of forgiveness is at times hard for when one finally attains it, the rewards are far greater than one could ever imagine.</div>
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Simon Deaconhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09189297137798109901noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6368902989917387637.post-55738978148944052552010-08-02T02:48:00.000-07:002013-11-06T02:58:38.548-08:00A Dream I Had<div style="text-align: justify;">
My latest Vortex Healing class, Quantum Jewel and Quantum Gate, ended on July 11th. It has brought me to an entirely new and powerful level of healing. The activation of the Q-Gate within my heart has brought my consciousness to a whole new level as well. I left feeling as if a powerful lighthouse bulb was blaring radiant light from my chest. Anthony Gorman, the Merlin teaching the class, said that once the Q-Gate is activated and used it brings a sense of light and fluidity within one's being. He was quite on the mark with that one. </div>
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After visiting some Massachusetts friends right after the class I returned home to NYC. That first night I had a dream that revealed quite clearly that it was back to business as usual. It was a dream I had many times before. I had gone back to school. I walked through classrooms and hallways in a state of confusion. I had a report due in one of my classes that was about writing on a certain spiritual issue. I had left the report unfinished to the very last moment and I knew I'd fail if I didn't turn it in. Yet, at the same time something stopped me from doing the report in the first place. I first considered doing the report on the Multifrequency level of Vortex Healing. I changed my mind and then considered doing it on the guru Amma Karunamayi. The dream ended where I didn't finish the report and was left with an intense feeling of anxiety in my chest. </div>
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Three weeks have passed and now that dream has revealed itself in my waking life. I returned home more aware of how overwhelming it feels to try and be a successful business man. As I explore the powers of the Q-Gate and the updated Quantum Jewel I focus on healing the issue of financial prosperity. A whole new level of anxiety, doubt, and confusion has come up to be released. This latest healing I've done around my confusion has revealed an insight which brings back hope. The Divine will always be there to bring us to our next level of growth but our fear usually blinds us to that simple truth. It reminds me how fear brain washes us to believe that fear is the only thing that exists. </div>
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Simon Deaconhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09189297137798109901noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6368902989917387637.post-64341692232549893092009-12-17T17:59:00.000-08:002009-12-17T23:16:09.416-08:00Divine ESP<div style="text-align: justify;">Did you ever have one of those thoughts that no matter how hard you tried to get rid of it kept nagging at you? This occurred just recently. What seemed like a cycling random thought inside my head turned itself into a very interesting lesson form the Universe.<br />
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The woman then walked across the street and borrowed the cell phone of another passer by to dial 911. As the woman called I sent Vortex healing structures all throughout the man's system. While the lady and I waited for the ambulance there were many people who passed by who feigned concern. One woman put her hand to her lips with an expression of grievous concern..... then walked away. Another woman in a car complimented us both for helping the man..... then drove away. This annoyed the lady and I enormously. We would have preferred they simply ignore the situation like most New Yorkers do instead of pretending to care. </div><div style="text-align: justify;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: justify;">When the ambulance arrived one of the men who road in the back immediately knew who the man was. I was taken aback by his reaction which was of frustration and disgust. He said the man was a very bad drunk who had been to the hospital many times before. The man on the ground was asked if he had any ailments and he mumbled back he had Parkinson's disease. To hear that brought a whole new level of pity to the situation. This man was truly at rock bottom. My perception of him changed however the moment they rolled him on his back. </div><div style="text-align: justify;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: justify;">The man wore a necklace that on closer inspection turned out to be Buddhist prayer beads. He also had a pin on his jacket with the picture of the Virgin Mary. I observed this with silent surprise. Here was a man who had reached a terrible level of suffering but still held on to a modicum of spiritual faith. </div><div style="text-align: justify;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: justify;">When one sees such suffering you can't help but ask, "Where is the Divine in all this?" Ric <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_0">Weinman</span> once said he was able to perceive the huge amount of love, compassion and divine grace that occurs behind situations of terrible suffering. It indicates how all situations have a higher purpose. I use that insight in this situation. The spiritual belief that all beings are exactly where they need to be is a very challenging belief. It confronts a spiritual person on the issue of what they can control and what they must surrender to the Universe.</div><div style="text-align: justify;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: justify;">I imagine the spirit of the Buddha and the Virgin Mary were working themselves through myself and the woman who dialed 911. I wonder now what the future holds for the man lying on the sidewalk. Will the Universe save him from terrible alcoholism and death or must he simply play out the rest of his karma to it's very end? I look forward when I too can see divine purpose behind all people's suffering. I'm sure it could alleviate much confusion and heart ache. </div><div style="text-align: justify;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: justify;">To see the Buddhist prayer beads and the Virgin Mary pin brought home the truth that the Universe shines even in the darkest of places. I recalled that same insight when I witnessed the Twin Towers collapse before my eyes. I reached out to the Universe and asked why this was happening? It responded by allowing me to feel it's light resonate within my heart. To believe that the Universe can shine during a moment of such horrible evil and destruction is a gigantic leap of faith </div><div style="text-align: justify;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: justify;">I am thankful to the Universe for allowing me to practice compassion on that morning. I am learning that compassion is something you consciously choose with each new moment. When you make that choice you then become part of a higher purpose. </div><div style="text-align: justify;"><br /></div>Simon Deaconhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09189297137798109901noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6368902989917387637.post-44225232846204682512008-09-25T14:47:00.000-07:002008-09-27T16:29:24.890-07:00Beloved Avi<div style="text-align: justify;">At the beginning of last month I was up to my eye balls in stress. I had broken up with my girlfriend and my best friend Wendy had moved to Seattle to be with her boyfriend. I was also planning to leave for my next Vortex class. (r) The night before I left I got home and discovered a note that my ex had left for me on the kitchen counter. She told me that Avi, one of my most special healing clients, had finally succumbed to her cancer and died.<br /></div><div style="text-align: justify;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: justify;">I thought I'd prepared myself for that moment because Birgitte informed me about a month before that Avi's surgery to remove her tumors was not successful. My brain couldn't take it all in at the time. So many things were going on and my head was spinning. The Vortex(r) class I was about to take would bring me to my next level of awakening and that's all I was able to think about. The timing couldn't be any more inappropriate. Or was it?</div><div style="text-align: justify;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: justify;">I returned home from class on a new level of enlightenment. Everything around me had changed because a huge layer of illusion had been stripped from my Being. I was now relating more from a place of vast and limitless Oneness. Such words are still inadequate to describe the true reality of the experience. After a time of integration I can now give honor to the memory of Avi. </div><div style="text-align: justify;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: justify;">Avi was a radiant beacon of Light. I've said this many times before and I will continue saying it in hopes that no one will ever forget. Avi knew she was dying and she refused to let that get her down. For someone so young, she was one of the most strongest souls I have ever met. I consider myself so honored that she chose me to give her a healing. A part of me was hoping the Vortex healing(r) would prolong her life but now I must take on faith that all has happened as it should. My friend Snow, who is also a healer, gave me some wonderful intuitive advice. She said the healing I gave Avi, along with the karma knots that were released brought her a more peaceful and resolved passing. This statement rings true in my heart and I thank Snow greatly for it.</div><div style="text-align: justify;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: justify;">My heart goes out to Avi's mother now. I can't even begin to fathom what she's feeling at this time. I will always pray to the Universe to give her strength. I will pray to the Universe that she can go on with her life and continue to find peace and happiness.</div><div style="text-align: justify;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: justify;">I am currently in the works of taking my healing practice to it's next level of success. I wish to dedicate this new level in the memory of Avi. I will let my experience with Avi sharpen my resolve as a healer. If I should ever find myself in a time of doubt I will remember Avi's incredible spirit and let it always inspire me. </div><div style="text-align: justify;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: justify;">Avi's spirit has returned to the Light and that should always be a reason to rejoyce.</div><div style="text-align: justify;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: justify;">Thank you Avi.</div><div style="text-align: justify;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: justify;"><br /></div>Simon Deaconhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09189297137798109901noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6368902989917387637.post-86832991633452104242008-07-09T18:28:00.000-07:002008-07-20T01:37:12.154-07:00A "Random" Healing<div style="text-align: justify;">I usually go jogging in the evenings. The energy in the city is less frenetic at night and it gives me a nice feeling of privacy when I'm doing it. My jogging route has been disappointing lately to say the least. I've gone long periods without right exercise and at my age I'm realizing it gets harder to bounce back. After such a disappointing jog up and down the Hudson pier I walked home and sat on my building stoop to rest before I went inside. As I was sitting there a young Latino man in his twenties came up to me and started talking. The man was obviously very drunk. I sensed nothing bad or ominous from this man so I continued to talk to him. I could tell this man needed someone to talk to and my healing instincts stared to kick in. <br /></div><div style="text-align: justify;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: justify;">"So have you been drinking for recreation or for escape?" I asked him.</div><div style="text-align: justify;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: justify;">"Escape" he replied.</div><div style="text-align: justify;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: justify;">"Escape from what?" I asked.</div><div style="text-align: justify;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: justify;">"Drama"</div><div style="text-align: justify;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: justify;">"Drama from what?"</div><div style="text-align: justify;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: justify;">He told me he was a smoker and just recently when he spat out saliva he saw blood. The doctors later told him he had emphysema. When he notified the employers at his job about his condition he was immediately suspended without pay and couldn't pay his rent. As he talked about this he started to break down and the next thing I knew this total stranger was sobbing in my arms.</div><div style="text-align: justify;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: justify;">I couldn't help but think how lucky this man was to "coincidentally" sit down next to me. I consoled him as best I could and told him that his life was not yet over and since he was young he had a greater chance to recover from his emphysema. When a person is in the middle of such drunken despair I knew verbal consolation could only go so far. I thought that now was a good a time as any to apply a little Vortex (r)</div><div style="text-align: justify;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: justify;">I told him I was an energy healer and if he were open to it I would give a quick healing. He agreed without much resistance. The man was in a very dark place in his life so I thought I'd make the healing really count by releasing a karma knot. I went inside myself and encompassed the man within Merlin's Jewel. I then instructed the Jewel to release the karma knot that would best help him move forward in his life. As the Jewel energy went through his system he began to lay his head against my shoulder. I was skeptical at first if I could release a karma knot in my tired sweaty condition but I eventually felt the release. When he opened his eyes I could immediately sense that his energy was different. I doubt he could sense it though.</div><div style="text-align: justify;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: justify;">I told him I had done some karmic healing and to trust me when I said it would really help him. He sluggishly nodded and told me he was thirsty and didn't want to take up any more of my time. I gave him some parting words before I went upstairs.</div><div style="text-align: justify;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: justify;">"Have faith God is there for you and He is helping you." I said. "God has helped you through me and if you remain open he will continue to help you through others as well." </div><div style="text-align: justify;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: justify;">I never grow tired of my professional healing practice but to bring healing to a complete stranger in this manner I hold as special. I believe there to be no coincidences in this universe. I thank the Universe for dropping a random stranger my way to keep me on my healing toes. I am humbled that by mere "chance" I may have altered the direction of an individuals life with a simple healing gesture.</div><div style="text-align: justify;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: justify;">Thank you Merlin.</div><div style="text-align: justify;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: justify;"><br /></div>Simon Deaconhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09189297137798109901noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6368902989917387637.post-70528389306910892862008-07-04T23:59:00.000-07:002014-03-19T23:45:21.571-07:00Avi<div style="text-align: justify;">
There are some healing clients that you know you will never forget. They come to you with a problem that is so severe that you feel nothing but humbled when it is you they have chosen to help heal them. This particular client was a seventeen year old girl named Avi. Avi is in the advanced stages of cancer.</div>
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I took the Hamptons Jitney up and met Birgitte and Melba at the bus stop. Melba seemed like a very nice woman. What I felt from her empathically was that of emotional turmoil. I would later find out that on an emotional level Melba needed a healing much more than Avi herself. When I got to Joanna's house my mouth gaped at how beautiful and luxurious it was. I stifled a laugh when Joanna told me it was one of the smallest houses in the neighborhood. After a quick tour, followed by lunch next to Joanna's pool I then met Avi. </div>
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Avi was resting in her bedroom. Her head was bald due to her chemotherapy and her right leg had been amputated from a previous car accident. As I started talking to her I began to see how strong and positive Avi was about handling her cancer. This was affirmed during the conversation when I told my perspective on healing and how negative thoughts and feelings can be underlying negative fuel for most diseases. She replied by saying this was the reason why she wouldn't let her diagnosis or any of the doctors get her down. At seventeen this girl was an amazingly wise soul. </div>
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I began the healing by weaving into Avi's system as many different healing energy structures as possible. These structures would continue to bring healing to Avi's system long after the healing ended. After releasing all karma knots around the issue of cancer I then sent her a healing frequency called Jewel Fire. I was very new to this frequency but I knew it could heal viruses and even cancer on a deep cellular level. Sending her this frequency took around an hour. During that time I was actually able to go into the consciousness of the cancer itself. It was revealed to me that the cancer was a result of a past life. I saw an image of the woman Avi once was. Apparently she died with a lot of unresolved pain and anger that she carried into this lifetime. I am careful to not make claims of being an expert on karmic debt. To make such a declaration can insinuate that the karma was in some way punitive. Karma is neither good nor bad but simply a way the soul chooses to balance itself out so it may continue to evolve. Whatever Avi's soul needed to learn in that lifetime was resolved incredibly through the evidence of her attitude in this lifetime. It didn't matter to Avi that she had cancer or that she may soon die. Avi was a radiant beacon of light and nothing that came her way would ever allow that light inside her to diminish. </div>
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When I finally had the time alone it fully hit me how moved I was by Avi. Avi's strength was an incredible inspiration and I felt so honored that she allowed me to heal her. It left me feeling very emotional. I also thought about the karmic healing I gave to Avi. I'm still learning what the full outcome will be when you bring karmic healing to an incurable disease. Merlin told me later the karmic healing will bring her deeper into spirit around the issue of cancer. What matters most is that Merlin said I actually prolonged her life. Avi is such an incredible girl that it would be a true blessing for her stay on this earth as long as she can to inspire others.</div>
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I say for the record this blog in no way makes the claim that Vortex Healing (c) cures cancer. Vortex Healing (c) is simply a treatment for illness and should always been done alongside conventional medicine.</div>
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Simon Deaconhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09189297137798109901noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6368902989917387637.post-2662628984340731852008-03-12T18:51:00.001-07:002008-07-20T01:31:27.825-07:00Healing Forward In My Practice<div style="text-align: justify;">I have been doing a lot of healing around the issue of success in my healing practice. Business has slowed and that brings up a lot of anxiety. <br /></div><div style="text-align: justify;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: justify;"> About two months ago I did a healing around the issue of money. The healing was quite general and I asked Merlin to simply send healing to where ever it needed to go. It was hard to see what the outcome of the healing was until just recently. It brought up <span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: bold;">more</span> anxiety. Everywhere I turned I was facing nothing but blocks upon blocks that were preventing me from moving forward. It was driving me crazy and leaving my stomach tied up in knots. I knew that fear around money was a problem for me and now the healing was bringing up yet another layer. I got fed up with it and decided to take action. This time I did a healing around my money fear.</div><div style="text-align: justify;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: justify;">This healing was more powerful than the last and brought up more specific issues. I was faced yet again with beliefs that were blocking me from letting fulfillment in. They kept saying, "This is not going to happen." </div><div style="text-align: justify;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: justify;">Visions came up.</div><div style="text-align: justify;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: justify;">I saw an image of myself with my head lowered. A man with long hair walks up to me and whispers in my ear, "Death" The vision startles me but I've been a healer long enough to know that not all deaths are physical. This could have meant a death was happening inside me that would lead to some sort of transformation.</div><div style="text-align: justify;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: justify;">I have another vision where I see a man sitting on the floor with his legs outstretched. I couldn't see what he looked like for he was encased in darkness. The man points upward and says, "What you are looking for isn't down here but up there." I look up and see that a beautiful divine light is shining just above him. I have a few ideas what the vision means but for now I will let the insight unfold naturally.</div><div style="text-align: justify;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: justify;">I then see images of eyes that are jumbled together in a black looking soup. The eyes look cock-eyed and twisted. I'm pretty sure this vision was indicating the release of negative perceptions I was holding onto. </div><div style="text-align: justify;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: justify;">The release of negative emotions was becoming exhausting but then started to subside. The feeling of strength finally started to take over my entire being. It was wonderful to feel and brought hope that I could approach money with more strength and power. I then felt the release of a barrier. The barrier took form as some sort of dome around my consciousness. I sensed this particular barrier was keeping a lot of the fulfillment I so desired always beyond my reach. It was such relief to finally feel it fall away.</div><div style="text-align: justify;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: justify;">I did this healing only yesterday and now I must wait to see how the healing manifests itself. </div><div style="text-align: justify;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: justify;">I've done a lot of healing around the issue of money and I'm now in the midst of learning an important lesson. One cannot achieve the highs of money until one knows how to truly deal with the lows. For the longest time I had nothing but fear around money. The fear would make me shirk many financial responsibilities. When a financial crisis hit it was so easy for me to get all bent out of shape. Now I see how important it is that when a crisis occurs I must always come from a place of power and centeredness. </div><div style="text-align: justify;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: justify;">Money is neither good nor evil. Money simply is. It is the inner demons of fear, guilt, unworthiness and lack that we must heal in order to attain the financial abundance we so desire. I would like nothing more than to be a rich man. When I get there I will always let the power of the Divine be my moral compass. </div><div style="text-align: justify;"><br /></div><div><br /></div>Simon Deaconhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09189297137798109901noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6368902989917387637.post-52037501568083570702008-02-01T02:56:00.000-08:002008-03-12T23:44:58.447-07:00Bowing In Reverence<div style="text-align: justify;">Greetings.<br /></div><div style="text-align: justify;"><br /></div><div><div style="text-align: justify;"><span class="Apple-tab-span" style="white-space:pre"> </span>I have started a new blog with the intent of it's focus to be mostly on my healing and spiritual life.</div><div style="text-align: justify;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: justify;"> I am a certified Vortex Energy Healer. (r) As I write these blogs it will become obvious how my life as a healer goes hand-in-hand with my spiritual life. I have been on the path to enlightenment ever since I was 16. (Quite a goal for a teenager) I was attuned to Reiki, levels 1 & 2 when I was 26. Reiki's healing energy was beautiful but it was in 2001 that I came across Vortex Healing (r) by accident. Vortex became the most powerful healing energy I had ever experienced. With each Vortex (r) transmission my entire energy system would open up more and more and bring me more deeper into Oneness. By my third transmission I began to realize that Vortex (r) was playing a huge part in my own spiritual awakening. <br /></div><div><div style="text-align: justify;"> <br /></div><div style="text-align: justify;">A new stage of my spiritual path has now begun. In my last Vortex (r) class I lost what was called my Core Veil. This was the veil that created the illusion of separation between myself and the Divine. I now feel a sense of freedom and lightness that wasn't there before. It doesn't matter how stressed out or emotional I get because I can no longer hold onto any bad moods for too long. Negative emotions now slip through my fingers like sand and the only thing left is the feeling of freedom. So much of what I have identified myself to be is now being released. I felt grief in the beginning because not all of what I identifed myself to be was bad. In the end those identifications were still limited. </div><div style="text-align: justify;"><br /></div><div><div style="text-align: justify;">A Divine Light that goes beyond my ability to comprehend at this time stands before me. I begin to take my first steps forward.<br /></div><div style="text-align: justify;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: justify;"><br /></div></div></div></div>Simon Deaconhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09189297137798109901noreply@blogger.com0